this is a page compiling little bits of lovemail from different sources (tumblr, notes app, random things i've jotted down) that i'd like to keep. i'm trying to get better about keeping this stuff now, considering how much writing about them i've lost to old discord servers, accidentally deleted files, and those sorts of things. (can you tell i started feeling more comfortable openly talking about them in 2024)

Real Life Items - May 2025I wanted to talk a little bit about some real life Floriaster themed items I have! I really do feel that finding items that can remind you of your kintype and those important to you can be a very meaningful experience, and at a bit of joy into your day. I have some big items to show off, and then a group shot!

Here's an item I got a long time ago. It was being sold on etsy as a vintage rose and dove themed rosary. Totally perfect for them, and I fell for it instantly. (Alas... I have since lost the etsy seller. But they packaged it very nicely with this little rose bag and clamshell box.)

This is a very recent get! I bought it as a sort of early anniversary present for myself. It's a "sunset rose" necklace, using actual rose petals in resin. I got this at a very local craft show, which unfortunately means I can't link to the artist without effectively doxxing myself. Whoops.
But, it's so beautiful and bright in person, with yellow and red petals, and bits of gold foil for some shine. Everyone loved preserved flowers.

Here's the little group shot of everything! The ones I didn't show off individually are two purple gems in star shapes, though I don't know what type of gems, and an acrylic stand of Florian and Aster. The art was done by Leithsin, and it was printed through Vograce.
As for things I'd like to still get, I'd love love love to get some high quality prints of some of my favorite art I've gotten of them, but as someone who's never done this sort of thing before, it's a bit hard to figure out where to go, what paper to use, what's a good price, etc... I'll do the research at some point!
Random gush - August 2024 my relationship with aster is (cries for five hours straight)

man. how do I even articulate it. they taught me what love was, and what it could feel like. both in the sense of like my angelkin identity being a past life thing so it’s like “yeah that’s how I learned it in the Past” but also. in my life rn, remembering aster taught me so much about love.

I do not wanna get All Sad but. I had many a rough relationship (both romantic and platonic) but I just. kind of thought that was what relationships were! they couldn’t be perfect, so it’s probably fine if it’s bad, you just need to learn how to deal with it.

and. remembering more and more of aster was like a revelation that people can understand you, see every part of you, and love you still. that love won’t be weakened by knowing more about you, it will be strengthened! even if you’re strange, and don’t quite fit, or you’re not socially skilled, or whatever. there will be people who love you regardless.

knowing aster is what made me realize that, and in turn is what made me care about myself enough to like! not put up with that shit! to allow myself to demand more, instead of just taking anything I can get. before I could care about myself For myself I could at least do it because they did.

I owe them a lot. they’ve changed my life over and over again to the point of imagining myself without their influence on me is impossible. it’s fun, in a way, seeing how much of me now is clearly colored by them then. we are everyone we’ve ever loved. (<- something I know they would say too)

Asterversary - May 2024 so! today marks exactly one year since I remembered aster’s name. I knew about them long before that, but learning their name really felt like a turning point for me, in knowing more about them, in feeling closer to them… and ultimately learning a lot more about myself as well!

learning names feels kinda. huge for my angelkin mems. it took me years and years to remember florian’s name as well, when it just suddenly hit me one day. but the realization of that doesn’t even compare to remembering aster’s name. i wanted nothing more than to talk about them, to put my thoughts into words, but without something to call them, that just felt impossible. and i didn’t want to call them Anything until i could be one hundred percent sure i was right. knowing their name gave me the ability to put words to how i felt about them.

I can’t remember exactly what day I remembered the general vibes of aster, or specifically that we were romantically involved, so I picked this as just a general anniversary date for us! (it’s also national bring flowers to someone day. which is fun). not really putting a year number on it because. I’ve known about them vaguely for a decade, specifically for less than that, and their name for only a year. it’s just. our [year redacted] anniversary

to aster. my sunshine, my princess, my prince, the most human among all angels, I love you so dearly. you will always be a part of my heart, as you’re essentially the originator of it. you taught me what it meant to feel, and to love, and for that I’m forever grateful. it opened up an entirely new world for me, one that I may have never had access to without you. though between the two of us, you were always the wordsmith, I hope the stories I write and the things I say can do justice to you, and how you made and still make me feel. though I fear I’ll never truly capture the depths of your kindness and beauty, I’ll continue trying nonetheless. I hope to never stop learning more about you.

Pining Stage Questions - May 2024Okay I'm just doing a link for this one because it's so long. Here's that link.